Keith

Keith's mental health journey began around the age of 12 or 13, when he sensed that something felt different within him, although he couldn’t pinpoint exactly what it was. There was no specific event that triggered these feelings; growing up, he gravitated toward the darker aspects of life, such as using substances and other unhealthy practices as a means to cope with the discomfort. He thought it was just a phase that would eventually pass, but ultimately found himself trapped in a downward spiral.

In his early 20s, after experiencing heart attack-like episodes and persistent insomnia, he decided to seek help from a doctor. It was then he was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and panic disorder, which marked the beginning of his recovery journey. Initially, he solely relied on medication to alleviate his symptoms, believing it would cure him. However, by his late 30s, everything came to a head. He felt overcome by immense darkness and was unable to go to work. In that moment of despair, he raised the white flag, admitting he couldn’t carry on in that way any longer. His doctor recommended a day program at a local hospital (Ontario Shores), which offered support for individuals facing similar challenges.

Keith figured he had nothing to lose and decided to participate in the program. He was completely amazed by how life changing it was. During his time in the program, he experienced an ‘aha’ moment, realizing that recovery from mental illness isn’t just clinical. He began learning new skills, techniques and life style changes. Ultimately, he reflected on how beneficial it would be for everyone to have access to this knowledge, potentially preventing others from hitting rock bottom like he had. Keith recalls, “I remember thinking that everybody should know these skills and education; it could really change lives.”

This realization fueled a desire in Keith to spread the word and help others. After 20+ years of working as a graphic designer—where he felt he was merely on autopilot—he had another epiphany: he wanted to support others in their recovery journeys. He got involved in peer support, took relevant courses, and began volunteering at Ontario Shores. Four years later, he completely transitioned his career and found himself working full-time at Ontario Shores. It was then he was also diagnosed with ADHD, which helped him make sense of his past struggles.

Now, as a peer supporter, Keith encourages others by sharing that recovery is indeed possible. He believes in changing the narrative around mental health – particularly men’s mental health - and reducing the stigma associated with seeking help for what he calls "brain pain." He stresses, “There is no shame in asking for help.” While he still takes medication, he understands that it is only one tool in his recovery toolkit. He emphasizes that after completing the day program, he discovered that personal recovery involves two-thirds personal effort and one-third medical support, contrasting with his earlier belief that it was all about the medication.

Keith's commitment to recovery extends to the Recovery College program at Ontario Shores, which is open to everyone—patients, families, and anyone interested. With over 80 courses available, Recovery College focuses on skill-building, education, and connecting with like-minded individuals to combat feelings of isolation. Since the pandemic, they’ve adapted to online platforms, reaching as far as British Columbia, spreading awareness about their services through word of mouth and online searches.

Keith urges anyone feeling that something isn't right to reach out for help, emphasizing that trying to go through it alone can be destructive. Keith reminds us that recovery is not a destination but a lifelong journey of continuous growth and forward movement.